Nearly four years on from the suicide of my husband and I’m grateful

“At times, our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person.  Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us” – Albert Schweitzer At the outset of this post, I want to stress that I am not grateful that KarlContinue reading “Nearly four years on from the suicide of my husband and I’m grateful”

Dear suicidal person/ the letter I wish I could go back in time and send to my late husband

Right now your brain is lying to you.  Your brain is telling you that if you leave, everyone will be better off, everyone will happier.  This is fundamentally untrue.   It is, in fact, the opposite of the truth. If you leave, your exit will cause a nuclear bomb to explode into the lives of everyoneContinue reading “Dear suicidal person/ the letter I wish I could go back in time and send to my late husband”

A Suicide Survivor’s perspective on Suicide Prevention Month

I should stress at the outset that, by Suicide Survivor I mean a person who has had to survive the suicide of a loved one, not a person who has survived a suicide attempt. September is Suicide Prevention Month.  I am relieved that it is over.  I have lost count of the amount of viralContinue reading “A Suicide Survivor’s perspective on Suicide Prevention Month”

Life after a Fairy tale (the wedding, and the wedding anniversaries when your spouse is dead) – Endless love

“And your eyes Your eyes, your eyes They tell me how much you care Ooh yes, you will always be My endless love Two hearts Two hearts that beat as one Our lives have just begun” Six years ago, on Friday 29 August 2014 I married Karl David Francis McFarlane Norrington.  It was the happiestContinue reading “Life after a Fairy tale (the wedding, and the wedding anniversaries when your spouse is dead) – Endless love”

All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you – The Beginning

“I will never find another lover sweeter than you,Sweeter than youAnd I will never find another lover more precious than youMore precious than youyou are close to me you’re like my mother,Close to me you’re like my father,Close to me you’re like my sister,Close to me you’re like my brotherYou are the only one myContinue reading “All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you – The Beginning”

Birthdays after loss

Today is my birthday and so I thought today was a fitting moment to talk about what it feels like to “celebrate” a birthday after losing a spouse. As anyone who knows me well will attest, I love parties, I love dressing up, I love dancing and I love being the center of attention.   Therefore,Continue reading “Birthdays after loss”